I’m gonna make it even if I am without you

HURT + HATE + ANGER + IN DENIAL + COPING UP + ACCEPTANCE + LETTING GO + MOVING ON = you’re making yourself a better person.. long due process that you have to go through when you have shed so much of your love and submitted your entire self to someone you hope to be a partner, where you find that person a comfort zone, your security blanket, lover and friend.. This hasn’t been easy for everyone speacially to me.. The only difference in this idea is the more I get hurt the more that I try to catch up with I have missed because my life revolved to that person, the more that I make myself feel better and a lil pampering will do, the more that I make myself think wiser to regain self esteem or pride I guess. When the world turns upside down, its just making me feel bad, for it turns out that you’re becoming the bad side of the relationship, because you have already moved on just before he realizes that you’re gone, and now that I am all doing good?? I am to blame. And I had thought? why I am just being quiet about it… maybe i don’t care… maybe there is really no more love… maybe I don’t want them to affect me anymore for they didn’t know what I have gone through.. This is never easy for me… i don’t think anybody presumed cases like this as easy unless they are bitter with their lives.. sorry!!! nothing against those kind of people who perceive life as never ending pain. Not that I know I could think of. I love this life I have. Now that I am a mother I appriciate it more. And I know for a fact that I have given my all.. If they are not to appriciate it it’s fine, it would hurt, but i’ll get through it, by and by.  I love who I am now.. There might be certain things that I am still working on to change.. I am willing to risk all to do that, but ofcourse with considerations.. My daughter will always be important to me.. I will always have this unconditional, instictual and forever love for her. She is my life and I guess that makes me a better person. Being single and mother doesnt really have to be complicated, it’s just those people who tend not to perceive what really happened and an ex partner who is having a hard time moving on.. Mind you, it ain’t easy but you’ll get through it and when you did… Love some more.. Thanks for everything.. I am all good now with no worries.